In Loving Memory...

Today My beautiful Mother in law passed away. It has been a long hard day I feel like I have lived a week today. I have been so blessed to have her in my life.

I will miss you Mom!

Life... And meeting President Monson!!

So I have been HORRIBLE about blogging lately!! Im sorry!! But the other day the coolest thing happened! Mommy and I were walking to the temple we were really late to our session President Monson pulled up next to us on his golf cart and asked mommy and I if we would like a ride! mommy let me sit by him and he talked to me the whole time!! I couldn't talk I was so much in shock I couldn't move my heart had seriously stopped! He was so nice and then the security guard who was driving pulled off to the side and there was president Uchtdorf Mommy and I said thank you and got off to walk the rest of the way. when we were almost to the temple they drove past again and this time they had president eyring with them and they all waved to us and said Thank you!! I thought I was dreaming!! It was so cool!! I just can't believe that happened to me!!!

In other areas of my life there is a very big possibility that I have Lupus. I have been going to see doctors about this and it has been a rough little while! I have been very stressed about this.

Over the weekend Tina took me to the Tim Mcgraw concert!! It was awesome! I Love him!! I am so glad we got to go! Luke Bryan and The Band Perry opened for him and they were Fantastic!! I will really miss Tina when she is in China!!

Today Dallin and I will celebrate our 3rd anniversary! I can't believe it has been 3 years! Wow I love Dallin so much we are so happy!

So pretty much life is wonderful it always has its rough moments but we will get by we always do!

No excuses!!

Tonight I have no excuse not to blog! I am a sitter at work tonight, which means I am just going to sit in one patients room all night and make sure he doesn't pull anything out! The fun part is that he speaks no english he only speaks spanish. So dallin brought me my computer and I am just going to sit here all night. So to help pass the time I will catch you all up on my life!!

I love my new job! it is so perfect for me I love coming to work and I really love working nights! I never thought I would like nights but I really do they are my perfect time to work!! I have had 3 patients die while I have been here the first two were really hard for me but this last one was was easier I was able to do the things I needed to do and I was fine. I like my job because I am able to have more of a relationship with my patients which I really like. I enjoy talking to my patients and learning more about them. I am really excited though because I was able to get all of the days off for dallins family reunion in july which we are really excited about!

I am also very proud of myself because I have started going to the gym again. I really like going to the gym. I am trying to be healthier. I used to have so many issues with my body I thought I was so ugly and I never felt like there was anything good about me. The last few months has changed that though I no longer look at myself and think I am fat and ugly I am able to look at myself and feel good about my body. I know i am not skinny but I am really ok with that I love who I am. I was thinking back to when I started gaining weight. I have figured out when that was it was right after I had my first miscarriage I was so depressed afterwards that I just didn't care about me anymore. I have struggled with my body image ever since. But the thing is I can look in the mirror everyday and tell myself all of these horrible things about myself but then I realized that I really am the only one who sees that. Dallin doesn't think i am fat he doesn't think I am ugly. so why should I? But I am going to the gym now because I have time to go to the gym I have alot of free time now. And I like going to the gym now because I am going to be healthier not to see immediate results which really helps!

We also got new couches which is really exciting!! I have never had brand new furniture except for our bed everything we have is from DI so I am so excited to have a new couch and loveseat that I know no one has ever sat it! They are so pretty and so clean I felt so grown up buying couches!

Well thats about it for now!! Everything else is great for us!!

Yesterday I went and visited Pam and Aunt Beckie it was such an nice day! It had been a long time since I had seen aunt beckie it was really nice to visit with them! Dutch and Dane were so cute I loved seeing them! I took the first picture of Dutch and Dane. But dutch took the picture of Aunt Beckie and Dane. I really loved playing with Dutch he is so sweet!!

I GOT IT!!!

I got the job!! I am so happy!! I called them and they told me!! I am so thrilled I am going to call back in 30 minutes to review the full offer!! Thank you for all your prayers I know they helped! I feel so blessed to have such wonderful family and friends!!

Update: I Gave my two weeks notice today. My last day here will be on May 12th!! It is bitter sweet I will miss the kids but this is such an amazing opportunity! I cant wait!

no news...

No news is good news right?? I am seriously making myself sick over this! I wish they would just let me know either way!! I want this job so bad!! I am having a hard time waiting to find out!!

Quiet moment

This morning Thomas came home from the hospital. Jay and Jared are sleeping right now and everyone else is gone so it is just him and I. Thomas is asleep too I love just laying here holding a sleeping baby it is so peaceful. I really want one of my own but until then it is nice to be able to hold this new little miracle. I wish jay could sleep better though every time he starts whimpering Jay comes to make sure he is ok but i guess that comes with being a mom. I can't wait to have my own.