I have a NEW BLOG!!

I have been having alot of problems with this blog so I started a new one! Sorry for the inconvenience! the blog is thewalkerswonderfuladventures.blogspot.com! I won't be posting to this one anymore!

Christmas came early!!

This evening Dallin and I went to best buy to get my Christmas present! A new SLR camera which I am really excited about it he told me I could have it already I have been playing with it all evening it is WONDERFUL I love it! While we were there Dallin went to look at TVs we had sort of been talking about buying one maybe next year and Dallin is not an impulse buyer he research's everything so imagine my surprise when we left with this...

an LG 47 inch LED 3d smart tv

I always thought 3d tvs were dumb because you had to have all of the extra stuff to watch 3d

well this one came with 4 sets of 3d glasses and it uses the same ones you use in theaters so we can just save those to have extra glasses I had a pair in my bag from when we went to see the lion king in 3d and they really do work. This tv will also convert regular tv channels and movies into 3d and because it is a smart tv it streams Netflix instantly so right now we are watching a Netflix movie in 3d. It is really cool. Dallin is really excited! He has been playing with it for hours. so if any one wants to come watch a 3d movie come on over!! Dallin would LOVE to show you his new toy!!

I am working in the tele room tonight and the best part of this is that I brought my computer and so I have been talking to .... TINA ALL night and this has been WONDERFUL!! She is so much fun and she always makes me feel so much better about absolutely EVERYTHING!! I love her SO very much! We have been talking about holidays and we talked about the Christmas I had that nightmare! HAHA Mommy and Annie do you remember that?! It was horrible I can seriously still see it! I absolutly love my job this has been a really really good night! I ate a yummy salad tonight and a whole lot of gummy bears and jolly ranchers! Jolly Ranchers are my favorite candy right now because they are just sour enough that they keep me awake but they are not too sour and they are hard so I have to stay awake to eat them! And can I just say that I love pinterest I am always finding new hair-dos on there so I get alot of compliments on my lovely hair! I really love wearing scrubs! I just thought about that because Kim walked past and I liked her scrubs im not really wearing scrubs tonight I am wearing scrub pants and a comfy shirt. I have 2 more hours of work! I Havent seen Dallin since sunday because our schedules have been oppisite. so I am hoping to get home in time to see him today! if not I have to wait until tonight! but I need to stop at the store on my way home so we will see what happens! Tina is making me laugh REALLY REALLY hard! I love her!! I am relly tired so that is why I go off on a lot of tangents! Sorry!

Bad Semester

Right now I think of our life in terms of semesters and this one has been the worst ever. I am so glad it is almost over this semester has included 4 trips to the ER, numerous sick days, a whole lot of doctors visits, the death and funeral of Dallins mom, and now the death of one of Dallins friends. Dallin has been really shaken up by this latest news on Tuesday his friend Holly was doing a school project which involved her base jumping in Provo when she finished the project she decided to base jump one more time she was really experienced so this was supposed to be an easy jump and she had already done it a couple of times that day but her parachute malfunctioned on this last jump when the emergency crews arrived she was in critical condition her condition quickly grew worse and she passed away. Dallin and her sat together in their premed classes and he is the one who encouraged her to become a TA for the same class that he TAs for. I have heard a lot about her over the years and these past couple of days have been really hard for Dallin. We are really anxious for this semester to be over.

There have been some good points to this semester like my birthday and Mommy taking me to Disney on Ice that was SO fun I love Disney on ice and my best friend heather moved back which has been wonderful.

My Surgery

At 2 am on Sunday morning Dallin took me to the emergency room because i was in extreme pain and I was really sick I couldn't keep anything down! They were giving me a ton of morphine and zofran through my iv but I still couldn't keep half of a saltine cracker down. So they decided to keep me in the hospital. The doctor decided that something needed to change because I was too sick. So at 12:30 yesterday I went into surgery they were able to remove the kidney stone but my kidneys were very infected and my left ureter (the tube that connects the kidney to the bladder) was swollen shut so they had to put a stint in to keep that tube open so that the kidneys can clear out the infection. which means I am on bed rest for TWO WEEKS!! they originally said 5 days but that has now changed to two weeks! I am half way through the first day and I am already going crazy! I am still in a lot of pain but it is a different kind of pain. If anyone has any movie or book suggestions let me know! I am seriously open to suggestions! I am bored!!

Update

I have a Kidney Stone And so I have been in a lot of pain It started on October 10th and then I was feeling a lot better so on Tuesday of this week Pam, Dutch, Dane and I went out to lunch at a really yummy restaurant and I was still feeling fine until about 3 o'clock Wednesday morning I woke up in extreme pain I thought it was food poisoning or something like that but when it kept getting worse and worse I realized it was the same thing I had been experiencing a week earlier. So I knew it was a kidney stone. The pain got so bad that I was throwing up because I hurt so bad!! I have a really high pain tolerance so that is really unusual for me. I called my doctor at 9 that morning and they asked if I could get there by 9:15 I said yes and I jumped in my car and drove there (I had wanted to find someone to drive me but I didn't have time and they had to rearrange the doctors schedule to fit me in because I was an emergency so i didn't want to miss that appointment) When I got there my doctor asked if I had driven myself he was surprised when I said yes and he told me that I either needed to find someone to come and take me to the emergency room or they were going to call an ambulance. I called mommy because she was in town that day. Dr. Clark gave me a shot for pain and some nausea medicine. I was finally able to relax a bit and mommy came to get me. Dr. Clark had already called the Emergency Room to let them know I was coming so when I got there they were waiting for me so I got to go right back. They started me on an IV because I was really dehydrated. And they did a CT scan which was actually pretty fun because at that point the Morphine that the hospital gave me had kicked in so I was feeling pretty good! I still hurt but nothing like I had been earlier. The urologist who was on call came to see me. and he set up an appointment for me. I am required to take a Medical Leave of Absence so that is what I am doing just trying to rest and feel better. I have been told so many times that this is worse than Labor and I believe it I am in so much pain I can't stand it! I would hope Labor is not this bad I have never described my pain as a 10 on the pain scale but on Wednesday I was so far past a ten! SO that is about the only thing happening in my life right now!!

Life has had its ups and downs lately! I am now certified as a Tele Tech so basically I sit in a room and watch 3 moniters with 18 patients heart rates on each one and when I see a problem I pull it up on the fourth computer screen and measure out the rhythm to see whats going on and I alert the nurses of any significant changes! I like it so far! I still work an the floor as a cna but now I do both so my shifts are split between tele tech and cna! It is a nice break and I get paid more to do it which is nice! and my boss called today to tell me she is going to put me on tele tomorrow so I don't have to work on the floor on my birthday! And she wanted to know if I would be willing to give up most of my weekend shifts which I would be ok with!

I woke up this morning to snow here is the view out my window right now!! it has stopped

snowing here now it is only in the mountains!

It is my birthday tomorrow Dallin and I are going out to dinner tonight I am so excited I love going out to eat!

On monday I finally got around to decorating my bathroom it is so cute! I found on pinterest (I love pinterest) an idea to cover a magnet board with fabric and then stck magnets on the back of your makeup and it makes a good storage place so I did that and it turned out SO cute then I had leftover fabric so i made curtains to match! Here are pictures! It turned out so cute and I finally have a good organized place to store my makeup!

It has been a rough month...

In the beginning of august my mother in law went to see her cancer doctor for her yearly exam. Her cancer has been in remission for 4 years. she had breast cancer it is very rare for breast cancer to spread so I don't think any of us were too worried. She was told that her cancer had relapsed she was very optimistic and was ready to take it on and do what needed to be done. Less than 2 weeks later she went into the ER (it was a comfort to her and to all of us to know that Annie was there that night. She told me that she felt better knowing Annie was there helping her!) because she couldn't keep anything down at that point she still hadn't started Chemo. She stayed in the hospital for a week they did a CT scan while she was there and discovered that the cancer was in her bones, stomach, liver, kidneys, lungs and other places as well. she was retaining alot of fluid because of her liver being affected. on monday of this week she went to her doctor to finally start her chemo when she got there the doctor called her into his office and told her that her kidneys and liver had begun to shut down and she had 2 months left to live. At that point she gave up on thursday Dallin got a call telling us to come now we grabbed what we could and rushed to Orem she was in bad shape it was like she had aged 20 years in that week. We stayed with her until late into the night we went to my parents house to try to get some sleep at 7 that morning we got another call and we rushed back over to Mom Walkers house (I have never gotten dressed that fast in my life!!) That was the beginning of the longest day of my life. It was such a blur the only way we could describe it was that we were on a train and we could not slow down! I felt dazed all day people would come and go all day with each person it felt like a totally new day. It felt like we lived at least a week in that one day. I don't remember who was even there I just remember people. We were by her side as much as possible that day people would come and tell us to eat or drink. We were just forgetting about ourselves. at around 1 Dallin gave her a blessing I have never heard a more beautiful blessing. I watched her as the day progressed and the signs of death took over. at about 4 I noticed that it was almost time the hospice nurse who had been in and out all day came in and checked and said we were close. at 5:10 she took her last breath that was recorded as the official time of death. How Joyful her reunion with her husband and her child must be she is home with her Heavenly Father along with the family and friends who preceded her in death. The pain is gone and she is home. We are mourning the loss of this beautiful woman she will be missed until that great day that we too can be reunited with her. I feel like I have physically been beaten up. My whole body hurts! On monday we had 2 months and then less than a week later she was gone. I have been truly blessed to have her in my life! I know that everyone who has known her feels the same she NEVER spoke badly of anyone. She is a perfect example of christ like love. We miss her so much!

I am sorry if my rambling makes no sense my brain is not functioning well right now!

It has been a rough month...

In the beginning of august my mother in law went to see her cancer doctor for her yearly exam. Her cancer has been in remission for 4 years. she had breast cancer it is very rare for breast cancer to spread so I don't think any of us were too worried. She was told that her cancer had relapsed she was very optimistic and was ready to take it on and do what needed to be done. Less than 2 weeks later she went into the ER (it was a comfort to her and to all of us to know that Annie was there that night. She told me that she felt better knowing Annie was there helping her!) because she couldn't keep anything down at that point she still hadn't started Chemo. She stayed in the hospital for a week they did a CT scan while she was there and discovered that the cancer was in her bones, stomach, liver, kidneys, lungs and other places as well. she was retaining alot of fluid because of her liver being affected. on monday of this week she went to her doctor to finally start her chemo when she got there the doctor called her into his office and told her that her kidneys and liver had begun to shut down and she had 2 months left to live. At that point she gave up on thursday Dallin got a call telling us to come now we grabbed what we could and rushed to Orem she was in bad shape it was like she had aged 20 years in that week. We stayed with her until late into the night we went to my parents house to try to get some sleep at 7 that morning we got another call and we rushed back over to Mom Walkers house (I have never gotten dressed that fast in my life!!) That was the beginning of the longest day of my life. It was such a blur the only way we could describe it was that we were on a train and we could not slow down! I felt dazed all day people would come and go all day with each person it felt like a totally new day. It felt like we lived at least a week in that one day. I don't remember who was even there I just remember people. We were by her side as much as possible that day people would come and tell us to eat or drink. We were just forgetting about ourselves. at around 1 Dallin gave her a blessing I have never heard a more beautiful blessing. I watched her as the day progressed and the signs of death took over. at about 4 I noticed that it was almost time the hospice nurse who had been in and out all day came in and checked and said we were close. at 5:10 she took her last breath that was recorded as the official time of death. How Joyful her reunion with her husband and her child must be she is home with her Heavenly Father along with the family and friends who preceded her in death. The pain is gone and she is home. We are mourning the loss of this beautiful woman she will be missed until that great day that we too can be reunited with her. I feel like I have physically been beaten up. My whole body hurts! On monday we had 2 months and then less than a week later she was gone. I have been truly blessed to have her in my life! I know that everyone who has known her feels the same she NEVER spoke badly of anyone. She is a perfect example of christ like love. We miss her so much!

I am sorry if my rambling makes no sense my brain is not functioning well right now!

In Loving Memory...

Today My beautiful Mother in law passed away. It has been a long hard day I feel like I have lived a week today. I have been so blessed to have her in my life.

I will miss you Mom!

Life... And meeting President Monson!!

So I have been HORRIBLE about blogging lately!! Im sorry!! But the other day the coolest thing happened! Mommy and I were walking to the temple we were really late to our session President Monson pulled up next to us on his golf cart and asked mommy and I if we would like a ride! mommy let me sit by him and he talked to me the whole time!! I couldn't talk I was so much in shock I couldn't move my heart had seriously stopped! He was so nice and then the security guard who was driving pulled off to the side and there was president Uchtdorf Mommy and I said thank you and got off to walk the rest of the way. when we were almost to the temple they drove past again and this time they had president eyring with them and they all waved to us and said Thank you!! I thought I was dreaming!! It was so cool!! I just can't believe that happened to me!!!

In other areas of my life there is a very big possibility that I have Lupus. I have been going to see doctors about this and it has been a rough little while! I have been very stressed about this.

Over the weekend Tina took me to the Tim Mcgraw concert!! It was awesome! I Love him!! I am so glad we got to go! Luke Bryan and The Band Perry opened for him and they were Fantastic!! I will really miss Tina when she is in China!!

Today Dallin and I will celebrate our 3rd anniversary! I can't believe it has been 3 years! Wow I love Dallin so much we are so happy!

So pretty much life is wonderful it always has its rough moments but we will get by we always do!

No excuses!!

Tonight I have no excuse not to blog! I am a sitter at work tonight, which means I am just going to sit in one patients room all night and make sure he doesn't pull anything out! The fun part is that he speaks no english he only speaks spanish. So dallin brought me my computer and I am just going to sit here all night. So to help pass the time I will catch you all up on my life!!

I love my new job! it is so perfect for me I love coming to work and I really love working nights! I never thought I would like nights but I really do they are my perfect time to work!! I have had 3 patients die while I have been here the first two were really hard for me but this last one was was easier I was able to do the things I needed to do and I was fine. I like my job because I am able to have more of a relationship with my patients which I really like. I enjoy talking to my patients and learning more about them. I am really excited though because I was able to get all of the days off for dallins family reunion in july which we are really excited about!

I am also very proud of myself because I have started going to the gym again. I really like going to the gym. I am trying to be healthier. I used to have so many issues with my body I thought I was so ugly and I never felt like there was anything good about me. The last few months has changed that though I no longer look at myself and think I am fat and ugly I am able to look at myself and feel good about my body. I know i am not skinny but I am really ok with that I love who I am. I was thinking back to when I started gaining weight. I have figured out when that was it was right after I had my first miscarriage I was so depressed afterwards that I just didn't care about me anymore. I have struggled with my body image ever since. But the thing is I can look in the mirror everyday and tell myself all of these horrible things about myself but then I realized that I really am the only one who sees that. Dallin doesn't think i am fat he doesn't think I am ugly. so why should I? But I am going to the gym now because I have time to go to the gym I have alot of free time now. And I like going to the gym now because I am going to be healthier not to see immediate results which really helps!

We also got new couches which is really exciting!! I have never had brand new furniture except for our bed everything we have is from DI so I am so excited to have a new couch and loveseat that I know no one has ever sat it! They are so pretty and so clean I felt so grown up buying couches!

Well thats about it for now!! Everything else is great for us!!

Yesterday I went and visited Pam and Aunt Beckie it was such an nice day! It had been a long time since I had seen aunt beckie it was really nice to visit with them! Dutch and Dane were so cute I loved seeing them! I took the first picture of Dutch and Dane. But dutch took the picture of Aunt Beckie and Dane. I really loved playing with Dutch he is so sweet!!

I GOT IT!!!

I got the job!! I am so happy!! I called them and they told me!! I am so thrilled I am going to call back in 30 minutes to review the full offer!! Thank you for all your prayers I know they helped! I feel so blessed to have such wonderful family and friends!!

Update: I Gave my two weeks notice today. My last day here will be on May 12th!! It is bitter sweet I will miss the kids but this is such an amazing opportunity! I cant wait!

no news...

No news is good news right?? I am seriously making myself sick over this! I wish they would just let me know either way!! I want this job so bad!! I am having a hard time waiting to find out!!

Quiet moment

This morning Thomas came home from the hospital. Jay and Jared are sleeping right now and everyone else is gone so it is just him and I. Thomas is asleep too I love just laying here holding a sleeping baby it is so peaceful. I really want one of my own but until then it is nice to be able to hold this new little miracle. I wish jay could sleep better though every time he starts whimpering Jay comes to make sure he is ok but i guess that comes with being a mom. I can't wait to have my own.

Fingers Crossed

I went for a job interview yesterday for a great job at intermountain that i didn't think i had a chance of getting well today they called and told me that the interviewers loved me and they are checking my references!! I am still trying not to get my hopes up because I have no CNA experience and intermountain usually doesn't hire you unless you have 6-12 months experience but I am just hoping all goes well and that I get the job!! So I am keeping my fingers crossed and handing this over to the lord!! whatever happens happens and i have done all I can do!! But prayers would be greatly appreciated!!

Wonderful day!!

Today was a wonderful day!! This morning we went to the Primary Childrens Medical Center for sacrament that is always a wonderful experience there is such a sweet spirit there! Afterwards they asked me if I could help teach primary I was so excited to have the opportunity to do that I did nursery so we went around and sang primary songs with the children they were so sweet and so full of love and hope we taught 2 kids who were both in the hospital for seperate things but they are both in the process of being adopted by the same family I was so touched by that mother and father and how willing they are to open their home to these special needs children. They have 3 other children at home. Another little girl had a serious stroke 2 days before general conference but she is already gaining most of her movement back she was so independent and didn't want anyone to do anything for her. I love to go and see these families their faith is so strong I feel like my testimony is strengthened just by being around them!

After church we had a bar-b-que with alot of our friends out in the court! It was so fun we were out there for like 6 hours we have so many good friends here the weather was nice and we just had a good time talking and playing games! I love living here you can just walk outside and as soon as people look out and see you more people come out and then you have a fun get together! it is almost always the same people who come out those of us who have been here more than 2 years! We are having an adults only easter egg hunt on friday night because we decided it is not fair that the kids get 3 this year and we get none it should be awesome!! I am so happy here it was just a good day!!

it has been a beautiful day!! I have spent alot of time out side today I love this weather!! It is making me happy!

Thank you Governor Herbert!!

On Wednesday the governor vetoed the bill that would make us go back to a five day work week!! We get to keep our 4 day work weeks!! That made me very happy!!

New Blog!!

I have started a new blog I will probably post to that one a lot more than I do to this one so please check it out at saramariewalkerphotography.blogspot.com!!

8 Days!!

I only have 8 days until I go to Las Vegas! I am so excited! I have already started packing! I just can't wait. I am getting a new camera that is supposed to come either tomorrow or Friday! So i will be able to take lots and lots of pictures of everyone I am going to see while I am there! I really want it to be next Thursday so we can just go! We had such a great time when we were there 2 years ago! I am going to go swimming while I am there (I don't even care if it is too cold)! But I don't think Las Vegas ever gets too cold! I just looked and their low today is still warmer than our hi! It would be so nice to live somewhere where you never get cold! I am always cold! and I just cant even tell you how excited I am to see Heidi and her family and to meet her new baby! And to see Courtney I haven't seen her in almost 3 years and I get to see Marilyn and Wes!! I can't wait! 8 days is way too long! I still have so much to do before we go though! And we are only going to be there for a few days so I have to figure out how we are going to fit everything in! I need to email the people we are going to see and figure out when we can see them! I really can't wait!! This is going to be a long 8 days!!

Disappointed

I am really disappointed right now! I applied for a job with Intermountain as a phlebotomist and I was so positive that I would get it! It seemed so perfect! I went in and interviewed and I just felt like it would work out but i just found out i didn't get it. I feel like things just aren't working out the way they are supposed to. I am having a really hard time with this. I wanted this job so bad I felt like I would get it! I am having a hard time accepting the fact that i didn't get the job. It is so hard for me to see the lords will in this! I am really sad right now! But now I am looking forward even more to going to Las Vegas in a couple of weeks and seeing Heidi and her family and my friend Courtney and Dallins sister and her family! I really just need to get away for a while! I am just so disappointed right now!

Dallins Birthday!!

Yesterday was Dallin's 26th birthday!! he had to go to work at 7:30 and didn't get home until almost 5! So at 5 we went to dinner at The Spaghetti Factory! It was so yummy! Dallin got a cream soda so he got to keep his glass! Then we went to Williams Sonoma and I got Dallin some Star Wars shaped pancake molds! They are so cute! I need to make Dallin some pancakes! Then we just walked around some of the other shops at trolley square! After that we went miniature golfing at the place we went on our first date 3 years ago! It was fun but i don't understand why parents don't watch their kids anymore! there were little kids just running around everywhere so it was impossible to actually know who won the game because kids just kept running around golfing on the hole we were on!! I was a little annoyed! Then we went and got tickets to the new Chronicles of Narnia movie! It was really good but it seemed like the conflict would NEVER end! I did really like it though! There are a lot of similarity's with LDS Doctrine and i think that is cool! I didn't know there was going to be a new annoying kid in the movie Dallin said the kid is really annoying in the book too so that was just how his character is! But overall I think Dallin had a really good birthday!!