No excuses!!

Tonight I have no excuse not to blog! I am a sitter at work tonight, which means I am just going to sit in one patients room all night and make sure he doesn't pull anything out! The fun part is that he speaks no english he only speaks spanish. So dallin brought me my computer and I am just going to sit here all night. So to help pass the time I will catch you all up on my life!!

I love my new job! it is so perfect for me I love coming to work and I really love working nights! I never thought I would like nights but I really do they are my perfect time to work!! I have had 3 patients die while I have been here the first two were really hard for me but this last one was was easier I was able to do the things I needed to do and I was fine. I like my job because I am able to have more of a relationship with my patients which I really like. I enjoy talking to my patients and learning more about them. I am really excited though because I was able to get all of the days off for dallins family reunion in july which we are really excited about!

I am also very proud of myself because I have started going to the gym again. I really like going to the gym. I am trying to be healthier. I used to have so many issues with my body I thought I was so ugly and I never felt like there was anything good about me. The last few months has changed that though I no longer look at myself and think I am fat and ugly I am able to look at myself and feel good about my body. I know i am not skinny but I am really ok with that I love who I am. I was thinking back to when I started gaining weight. I have figured out when that was it was right after I had my first miscarriage I was so depressed afterwards that I just didn't care about me anymore. I have struggled with my body image ever since. But the thing is I can look in the mirror everyday and tell myself all of these horrible things about myself but then I realized that I really am the only one who sees that. Dallin doesn't think i am fat he doesn't think I am ugly. so why should I? But I am going to the gym now because I have time to go to the gym I have alot of free time now. And I like going to the gym now because I am going to be healthier not to see immediate results which really helps!

We also got new couches which is really exciting!! I have never had brand new furniture except for our bed everything we have is from DI so I am so excited to have a new couch and loveseat that I know no one has ever sat it! They are so pretty and so clean I felt so grown up buying couches!

Well thats about it for now!! Everything else is great for us!!

Yesterday I went and visited Pam and Aunt Beckie it was such an nice day! It had been a long time since I had seen aunt beckie it was really nice to visit with them! Dutch and Dane were so cute I loved seeing them! I took the first picture of Dutch and Dane. But dutch took the picture of Aunt Beckie and Dane. I really loved playing with Dutch he is so sweet!!

I GOT IT!!!

I got the job!! I am so happy!! I called them and they told me!! I am so thrilled I am going to call back in 30 minutes to review the full offer!! Thank you for all your prayers I know they helped! I feel so blessed to have such wonderful family and friends!!

Update: I Gave my two weeks notice today. My last day here will be on May 12th!! It is bitter sweet I will miss the kids but this is such an amazing opportunity! I cant wait!

no news...

No news is good news right?? I am seriously making myself sick over this! I wish they would just let me know either way!! I want this job so bad!! I am having a hard time waiting to find out!!

Quiet moment

This morning Thomas came home from the hospital. Jay and Jared are sleeping right now and everyone else is gone so it is just him and I. Thomas is asleep too I love just laying here holding a sleeping baby it is so peaceful. I really want one of my own but until then it is nice to be able to hold this new little miracle. I wish jay could sleep better though every time he starts whimpering Jay comes to make sure he is ok but i guess that comes with being a mom. I can't wait to have my own.

Fingers Crossed

I went for a job interview yesterday for a great job at intermountain that i didn't think i had a chance of getting well today they called and told me that the interviewers loved me and they are checking my references!! I am still trying not to get my hopes up because I have no CNA experience and intermountain usually doesn't hire you unless you have 6-12 months experience but I am just hoping all goes well and that I get the job!! So I am keeping my fingers crossed and handing this over to the lord!! whatever happens happens and i have done all I can do!! But prayers would be greatly appreciated!!

Wonderful day!!

Today was a wonderful day!! This morning we went to the Primary Childrens Medical Center for sacrament that is always a wonderful experience there is such a sweet spirit there! Afterwards they asked me if I could help teach primary I was so excited to have the opportunity to do that I did nursery so we went around and sang primary songs with the children they were so sweet and so full of love and hope we taught 2 kids who were both in the hospital for seperate things but they are both in the process of being adopted by the same family I was so touched by that mother and father and how willing they are to open their home to these special needs children. They have 3 other children at home. Another little girl had a serious stroke 2 days before general conference but she is already gaining most of her movement back she was so independent and didn't want anyone to do anything for her. I love to go and see these families their faith is so strong I feel like my testimony is strengthened just by being around them!

After church we had a bar-b-que with alot of our friends out in the court! It was so fun we were out there for like 6 hours we have so many good friends here the weather was nice and we just had a good time talking and playing games! I love living here you can just walk outside and as soon as people look out and see you more people come out and then you have a fun get together! it is almost always the same people who come out those of us who have been here more than 2 years! We are having an adults only easter egg hunt on friday night because we decided it is not fair that the kids get 3 this year and we get none it should be awesome!! I am so happy here it was just a good day!!