Life has had its ups and downs lately! I am now certified as a Tele Tech so basically I sit in a room and watch 3 moniters with 18 patients heart rates on each one and when I see a problem I pull it up on the fourth computer screen and measure out the rhythm to see whats going on and I alert the nurses of any significant changes! I like it so far! I still work an the floor as a cna but now I do both so my shifts are split between tele tech and cna! It is a nice break and I get paid more to do it which is nice! and my boss called today to tell me she is going to put me on tele tomorrow so I don't have to work on the floor on my birthday! And she wanted to know if I would be willing to give up most of my weekend shifts which I would be ok with!

I woke up this morning to snow here is the view out my window right now!! it has stopped

snowing here now it is only in the mountains!

It is my birthday tomorrow Dallin and I are going out to dinner tonight I am so excited I love going out to eat!

On monday I finally got around to decorating my bathroom it is so cute! I found on pinterest (I love pinterest) an idea to cover a magnet board with fabric and then stck magnets on the back of your makeup and it makes a good storage place so I did that and it turned out SO cute then I had leftover fabric so i made curtains to match! Here are pictures! It turned out so cute and I finally have a good organized place to store my makeup!

It has been a rough month...

In the beginning of august my mother in law went to see her cancer doctor for her yearly exam. Her cancer has been in remission for 4 years. she had breast cancer it is very rare for breast cancer to spread so I don't think any of us were too worried. She was told that her cancer had relapsed she was very optimistic and was ready to take it on and do what needed to be done. Less than 2 weeks later she went into the ER (it was a comfort to her and to all of us to know that Annie was there that night. She told me that she felt better knowing Annie was there helping her!) because she couldn't keep anything down at that point she still hadn't started Chemo. She stayed in the hospital for a week they did a CT scan while she was there and discovered that the cancer was in her bones, stomach, liver, kidneys, lungs and other places as well. she was retaining alot of fluid because of her liver being affected. on monday of this week she went to her doctor to finally start her chemo when she got there the doctor called her into his office and told her that her kidneys and liver had begun to shut down and she had 2 months left to live. At that point she gave up on thursday Dallin got a call telling us to come now we grabbed what we could and rushed to Orem she was in bad shape it was like she had aged 20 years in that week. We stayed with her until late into the night we went to my parents house to try to get some sleep at 7 that morning we got another call and we rushed back over to Mom Walkers house (I have never gotten dressed that fast in my life!!) That was the beginning of the longest day of my life. It was such a blur the only way we could describe it was that we were on a train and we could not slow down! I felt dazed all day people would come and go all day with each person it felt like a totally new day. It felt like we lived at least a week in that one day. I don't remember who was even there I just remember people. We were by her side as much as possible that day people would come and tell us to eat or drink. We were just forgetting about ourselves. at around 1 Dallin gave her a blessing I have never heard a more beautiful blessing. I watched her as the day progressed and the signs of death took over. at about 4 I noticed that it was almost time the hospice nurse who had been in and out all day came in and checked and said we were close. at 5:10 she took her last breath that was recorded as the official time of death. How Joyful her reunion with her husband and her child must be she is home with her Heavenly Father along with the family and friends who preceded her in death. The pain is gone and she is home. We are mourning the loss of this beautiful woman she will be missed until that great day that we too can be reunited with her. I feel like I have physically been beaten up. My whole body hurts! On monday we had 2 months and then less than a week later she was gone. I have been truly blessed to have her in my life! I know that everyone who has known her feels the same she NEVER spoke badly of anyone. She is a perfect example of christ like love. We miss her so much!

I am sorry if my rambling makes no sense my brain is not functioning well right now!

It has been a rough month...

In the beginning of august my mother in law went to see her cancer doctor for her yearly exam. Her cancer has been in remission for 4 years. she had breast cancer it is very rare for breast cancer to spread so I don't think any of us were too worried. She was told that her cancer had relapsed she was very optimistic and was ready to take it on and do what needed to be done. Less than 2 weeks later she went into the ER (it was a comfort to her and to all of us to know that Annie was there that night. She told me that she felt better knowing Annie was there helping her!) because she couldn't keep anything down at that point she still hadn't started Chemo. She stayed in the hospital for a week they did a CT scan while she was there and discovered that the cancer was in her bones, stomach, liver, kidneys, lungs and other places as well. she was retaining alot of fluid because of her liver being affected. on monday of this week she went to her doctor to finally start her chemo when she got there the doctor called her into his office and told her that her kidneys and liver had begun to shut down and she had 2 months left to live. At that point she gave up on thursday Dallin got a call telling us to come now we grabbed what we could and rushed to Orem she was in bad shape it was like she had aged 20 years in that week. We stayed with her until late into the night we went to my parents house to try to get some sleep at 7 that morning we got another call and we rushed back over to Mom Walkers house (I have never gotten dressed that fast in my life!!) That was the beginning of the longest day of my life. It was such a blur the only way we could describe it was that we were on a train and we could not slow down! I felt dazed all day people would come and go all day with each person it felt like a totally new day. It felt like we lived at least a week in that one day. I don't remember who was even there I just remember people. We were by her side as much as possible that day people would come and tell us to eat or drink. We were just forgetting about ourselves. at around 1 Dallin gave her a blessing I have never heard a more beautiful blessing. I watched her as the day progressed and the signs of death took over. at about 4 I noticed that it was almost time the hospice nurse who had been in and out all day came in and checked and said we were close. at 5:10 she took her last breath that was recorded as the official time of death. How Joyful her reunion with her husband and her child must be she is home with her Heavenly Father along with the family and friends who preceded her in death. The pain is gone and she is home. We are mourning the loss of this beautiful woman she will be missed until that great day that we too can be reunited with her. I feel like I have physically been beaten up. My whole body hurts! On monday we had 2 months and then less than a week later she was gone. I have been truly blessed to have her in my life! I know that everyone who has known her feels the same she NEVER spoke badly of anyone. She is a perfect example of christ like love. We miss her so much!

I am sorry if my rambling makes no sense my brain is not functioning well right now!

In Loving Memory...

Today My beautiful Mother in law passed away. It has been a long hard day I feel like I have lived a week today. I have been so blessed to have her in my life.

I will miss you Mom!

Life... And meeting President Monson!!

So I have been HORRIBLE about blogging lately!! Im sorry!! But the other day the coolest thing happened! Mommy and I were walking to the temple we were really late to our session President Monson pulled up next to us on his golf cart and asked mommy and I if we would like a ride! mommy let me sit by him and he talked to me the whole time!! I couldn't talk I was so much in shock I couldn't move my heart had seriously stopped! He was so nice and then the security guard who was driving pulled off to the side and there was president Uchtdorf Mommy and I said thank you and got off to walk the rest of the way. when we were almost to the temple they drove past again and this time they had president eyring with them and they all waved to us and said Thank you!! I thought I was dreaming!! It was so cool!! I just can't believe that happened to me!!!

In other areas of my life there is a very big possibility that I have Lupus. I have been going to see doctors about this and it has been a rough little while! I have been very stressed about this.

Over the weekend Tina took me to the Tim Mcgraw concert!! It was awesome! I Love him!! I am so glad we got to go! Luke Bryan and The Band Perry opened for him and they were Fantastic!! I will really miss Tina when she is in China!!

Today Dallin and I will celebrate our 3rd anniversary! I can't believe it has been 3 years! Wow I love Dallin so much we are so happy!

So pretty much life is wonderful it always has its rough moments but we will get by we always do!

No excuses!!

Tonight I have no excuse not to blog! I am a sitter at work tonight, which means I am just going to sit in one patients room all night and make sure he doesn't pull anything out! The fun part is that he speaks no english he only speaks spanish. So dallin brought me my computer and I am just going to sit here all night. So to help pass the time I will catch you all up on my life!!

I love my new job! it is so perfect for me I love coming to work and I really love working nights! I never thought I would like nights but I really do they are my perfect time to work!! I have had 3 patients die while I have been here the first two were really hard for me but this last one was was easier I was able to do the things I needed to do and I was fine. I like my job because I am able to have more of a relationship with my patients which I really like. I enjoy talking to my patients and learning more about them. I am really excited though because I was able to get all of the days off for dallins family reunion in july which we are really excited about!

I am also very proud of myself because I have started going to the gym again. I really like going to the gym. I am trying to be healthier. I used to have so many issues with my body I thought I was so ugly and I never felt like there was anything good about me. The last few months has changed that though I no longer look at myself and think I am fat and ugly I am able to look at myself and feel good about my body. I know i am not skinny but I am really ok with that I love who I am. I was thinking back to when I started gaining weight. I have figured out when that was it was right after I had my first miscarriage I was so depressed afterwards that I just didn't care about me anymore. I have struggled with my body image ever since. But the thing is I can look in the mirror everyday and tell myself all of these horrible things about myself but then I realized that I really am the only one who sees that. Dallin doesn't think i am fat he doesn't think I am ugly. so why should I? But I am going to the gym now because I have time to go to the gym I have alot of free time now. And I like going to the gym now because I am going to be healthier not to see immediate results which really helps!

We also got new couches which is really exciting!! I have never had brand new furniture except for our bed everything we have is from DI so I am so excited to have a new couch and loveseat that I know no one has ever sat it! They are so pretty and so clean I felt so grown up buying couches!

Well thats about it for now!! Everything else is great for us!!

Yesterday I went and visited Pam and Aunt Beckie it was such an nice day! It had been a long time since I had seen aunt beckie it was really nice to visit with them! Dutch and Dane were so cute I loved seeing them! I took the first picture of Dutch and Dane. But dutch took the picture of Aunt Beckie and Dane. I really loved playing with Dutch he is so sweet!!