It has been a rough month...

In the beginning of august my mother in law went to see her cancer doctor for her yearly exam. Her cancer has been in remission for 4 years. she had breast cancer it is very rare for breast cancer to spread so I don't think any of us were too worried. She was told that her cancer had relapsed she was very optimistic and was ready to take it on and do what needed to be done. Less than 2 weeks later she went into the ER (it was a comfort to her and to all of us to know that Annie was there that night. She told me that she felt better knowing Annie was there helping her!) because she couldn't keep anything down at that point she still hadn't started Chemo. She stayed in the hospital for a week they did a CT scan while she was there and discovered that the cancer was in her bones, stomach, liver, kidneys, lungs and other places as well. she was retaining alot of fluid because of her liver being affected. on monday of this week she went to her doctor to finally start her chemo when she got there the doctor called her into his office and told her that her kidneys and liver had begun to shut down and she had 2 months left to live. At that point she gave up on thursday Dallin got a call telling us to come now we grabbed what we could and rushed to Orem she was in bad shape it was like she had aged 20 years in that week. We stayed with her until late into the night we went to my parents house to try to get some sleep at 7 that morning we got another call and we rushed back over to Mom Walkers house (I have never gotten dressed that fast in my life!!) That was the beginning of the longest day of my life. It was such a blur the only way we could describe it was that we were on a train and we could not slow down! I felt dazed all day people would come and go all day with each person it felt like a totally new day. It felt like we lived at least a week in that one day. I don't remember who was even there I just remember people. We were by her side as much as possible that day people would come and tell us to eat or drink. We were just forgetting about ourselves. at around 1 Dallin gave her a blessing I have never heard a more beautiful blessing. I watched her as the day progressed and the signs of death took over. at about 4 I noticed that it was almost time the hospice nurse who had been in and out all day came in and checked and said we were close. at 5:10 she took her last breath that was recorded as the official time of death. How Joyful her reunion with her husband and her child must be she is home with her Heavenly Father along with the family and friends who preceded her in death. The pain is gone and she is home. We are mourning the loss of this beautiful woman she will be missed until that great day that we too can be reunited with her. I feel like I have physically been beaten up. My whole body hurts! On monday we had 2 months and then less than a week later she was gone. I have been truly blessed to have her in my life! I know that everyone who has known her feels the same she NEVER spoke badly of anyone. She is a perfect example of christ like love. We miss her so much!

I am sorry if my rambling makes no sense my brain is not functioning well right now!